"I" cried out for milk at... Sunday, October 30, 2005
Incoherent, distorted thoughts in my mind.. Distracted? Maybe.
I was wondering what is going on to 周公 ( my sleeping god ). Was he so busy last night? Dawn is breaking soon, and I am still awake here. Had tried to convinced myself to sleep, but nothing was working. And several weird thoughts creep into my mind.
Was thinking what I had been doing in school for the past few months. When I was reading my notes, I do not recall going for any of the lecture of all my notes. But I did go school, though I skip classes too. I am still not an attentive person. I guess every time halfway through lec, I dozed off to my dreamland. That explains it!
I began to count the number of modules that I am taking. 8 modules. 7 of which are exam-able. It seems like back to secondary school where I take 9 subjects. How did I actually survive through O levels? I really wonder.
Is there a need to study so hard?? Why do all of us seem to study for just the sheet of paper (degree)? And our futures rely on the "paper"? It makes our lives meaningless! A note to it, " I have yet to find the meaning of my life." What a pathetic me, after having breathed 20 years of air.
Would u choose to work in a Big company or a small company? If u are a very capable person, and a small company hire you, then it seems to be 大才小用 ( One’s abilities are under utilized) *correct me if I am wrong*. If u are in a big company, there will be a lot of competitors, you might be nothing compared to them. There will be no chance for getting any much promotion in either case.
I have a "fantastic" discovery. If you are lying on the bed and are feeling hungry, u can try lying on ur stomach. Your hunger will disappear, and you can sleep. A discovery that I found out after lying on the bed for an hour.
Have you ever thought of having kids in future? And thought of leaving ur money for them? I have a friend, who actually had told me that she will not leave any single cent for her children in future. She would try to spend all her money before she die. No money to charity, No money to her children. She wants her children to be independent. Is this considered loving or cruel? I have no right to judge at this moment. I definitely will not do this.
There are too many thoughts on and off. I had already forgotten the rest. Haha.. time for bed. (my first yawn had appeared).
I dr@nk my nic3 w@rm milk @t...
6:17 AM :D
* I WAN MY MILK!!!
